We all deal with different issues everyday some more serious than others. However with time any suffering one might go through will likely end up being a memory and or a story. The real challenge is learning from every life's experience, and taking control of our lives by learning to accept what can not be changed. I was two years old when an individual took my fathers life away from him. Not giving me the chance to feel what it felt Like to be daddy's little girl. Since then my life became rough and distressing for many years. You see it took me many years to accept the reality and to stop asking why? Why can't I have a real dad like the rest of my friends? What had I done so wrong to not deserve a normal life with a mom and a dad? That alone hurt so much for so long. No one understood, everyone exclaimed how childish I was to feel sad over a person I remembered very little of. I was angry at the world for so long. My mother would always be working. My sister and I were left to be raised and cared for by my grandmother in a household that was always full of commotion, there was always one to many in the house. There was very little respect and no life encouragement. At the age of 14 I fell in a depression. Yet no one gave the issue the importance it demanded leading me to attempt suicide. Even then acquaintances of the family would suggest to grandmother that the best treatment for this was to ignore me, that I only wanted attention and that I should instead be left alone. By the age of sixteen I ran away from home determined to live a different lifestyle hoping there was a different way. Selfish me, Shortly after I got pregnant for the reason that I felt so neglected of life and relatives that I needed something that I could call mine, that I could treat and mold like I would have wanted to be treated and I also wanted to feel loved and needed and that was a feeling only a baby could give me. I didn't know what was going to happen. If my relationship was going to last or if I was going to be able to take care of this baby but I went for it. Six years have past and I now have two toddler boys and one baby girl. The best part is I'm still with the father of my three kids in a very stable relationship. At the age of twenty-one I was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst, and if not properly treated it would develop into cervical cancer. This was at the beginning of my last pregnancy which means I had a very complicated pregnancy. That led me to pause my career. I'm still pursuing an associate's degree in Criminal Justice. In addition I run my own online web store therefore as you can see I've had to really struggle to overcome life crisis and manage an online store. The world is a beautiful place and if we become victims of any life crisis we shouldn't let it blindfold us of appreciating the rest of the valuable things we have. Though if we do, we are only allowing and empowering it to hide the potential we all have inside. Especially if you don't know that you have it in you. Imagine all the times we felt sorry for someone. Are we going to make their life better by feeling this way? Absolutely Not! Instead of pity if we gave them a word of courage and a brief reality check as to stop focusing on the incident and instead analyze the situation surrounding the incident so that they don't have to go through it again. It is then that we could be decreasing the number of people with low self esteem giving up on life trying to commit suicide like I once did. I started living my life fully when I read from an article in a book that said that in order for one to appreciate and live life happy. Present and future. One must let go of the ghost, fears and bad experiences from the past One must also understand that it isn't our obligation, responsibility or ability to change anyone's past My point is it doesn't matter who or where you come from because what really matters is the decisions and choices we make in our life. Having said this I invite you visit my web store and see if I have something you might need. THANKYOU! For allowing me to share this with you! Even if you only want to send a comment. Visit us Today. http://DauntlessButterfly.com |